Dry Fast Day 1

I wanted to start this fast last week but then I got COVID and decided to postpone it until I was through the worst symptoms. Now I'm on day 6 of COVID (still testing positive) and I started my dry fast 8 hours ago after brushing my teeth. I plan to do a mostly hard dry fast except for one shower tomorrow. I also need to do some laundry over the next few days, so I might be in contact with wet clothes temporarily. Being quarantined to my bedroom still, I began my fast this afternoon by watching the movie Saving Private Ryan. While the premise of the movie might be fiction, watching the bravery and selflessness of those soldiers (along with the horrific conditions they faced in WWII) put things into perspective for me. How comfortable my life often is, and how self-centered I often live. I take people and things for granted on a regular basis, and I have become somewhat apathetic in my relationship with God (something I used to treasure above all else and draw tremendous strength, energy, hope, and inspiration from). Which brings me to the next movie I just started watching. The Passion of the Christ. A few things that have stood out to me since it started: "By his wounds, we are healed." I desperately desire healing in my mind, body, and soul right now. I am hopeful for a renewal of my faith journey by the end of this fast. I am also struck by how much Jesus has admonished his disciples to pray and stand watch. Also by how much he prays Himself in the most difficult and seemingly helpless circumstances. I have certainly lost sight of this over the past few years. The happiest, best days of my life were when I woke up every morning and spent 15 minutes in quiet meditation followed by prayer and journaling. I would literally be "blissed out" on life with every step I took. I now recognize the need to fast from all of the distractions and noise in my life that disconnect me from my Higher Power. I want to experience pure love, joy, and indescribable peace. I want to be one with God and all living beings. I want to have a pure mind and soul that wishes the best for ALL people that I encounter regardless of the circumstances, and regardless of their behavior towards me. I would like healing for those in my life that are suffering or ill in body, mind, and spirit. I pray for their good health and wholeness. I pray that I might sustain this fast for their benefit as well. God help me and be with me. Thy will be done always.