I have experienced an ego death and what this person is saying is true. But it is how I sounded before I encountered a real ego death. I was focused on changing everyone else and thought I had arrived. I’m not saying thats where OP is. I have no idea. But the way they are speaking reminds me of myself before I went through the darkest time of realizing how huge my ego had got.
Post ego death I’m far from perfect. Just way less judgmental and much more aware that if I have a problem the answer always lies with adjusting myself instead of trying to adjust anyone else.
Should anyone else desire to experience ego death, when you arrive, hang on. Be patient with yourself. It may be dark, but the sun shines again. And how wonderful it feels to experience the first rays of sunshine on your face.
…. Seriously reading OP’s comments it’s like I’m reading the words of my past self.
Dear Past Me,Keep going. When it hits you don’t let it destroy you. All the words you are putting out for others are actually for you. Meditate, fast, hold on to what you know to be good. It may feel useless and you may throw it all in the trash for awhile. It’s ok. Make art, spend time in nature, whatever you need to do. I love you, I know your intentions are good, and I know you will make it to the other side.