First Day Blues

Day one is almost always the most difficult, hampering down until that transition from day three to four. From my own experience, if one is prone to unconscious compulsions - i.e. 'habits' whether they be good or bad - then this feat is even more difficult. Although oddly enough, easier than water fasting. Suppose one's own successes depends largely on the emotional motivating factor - I've rarely seen it done through sheer discipline alone. That being said it's still possible. I'm noticing the majority are attempting this at stabilizing body weight? Suppose there's also some added purposes of revitalization or spiritual growth. Nothing wrong with it, I'm just pointing out that i noticed it. From my end of things, it's to relinquish myself of emotional volatility from the social perspective. I'm awash with shame, guilt, depression, anxiety - essentially that good mess of psychological dramas, which only hinders me from doing anything significant or worthwhile. For lack there of god(s) grace, I can't even read or write anymore without some emotional and psychological spiel sending me into a collision of endless rotation. I've tried fixing these things myself, however, having a broken mind trying to fix a broken mind when that mind that's fixing is the broken. I'm having a chuckle. This is what I've gotten myself into. Regardless of my little tangent there; fasting of either form has always seemed to set me back into the general swing of things. That being said, events and circumstances have never been this... Difficult. Best of fortunes to all attempting this for whatever reason, curiosity, health, or research. By the end of this, you cannot depart from this experience without anything to have been gained.